Well, I guess it is time. I actually started creating this blog three weeks ago yet I am publishing my first post today. Why? Because I am part perfectionist and part idiot! Please note that I use the word idiot as a humorous yet favorable word to remind me of the paradoxes in my character.

The choice was between Typepad and WordPress. I ended up picking WordPress because with Typepad, even though it seemed easier, I would have had to find a separate host to have an email address with my own domain name.

So for the last three weeks I have been pulling out my hair and tweaking. To most, a blog may seem like a fairly simple design and easy to create. NOT FOR ME! I hate code! Code is whacked and with WordPress, if you don’t know some code, it is very frustrating.

So here is the paradox. What makes me good at what I do actually drives me crazy, and I am sure others, too. I could have easily settled with the design I created two weeks ago. Heck, it was not bad and better then a lot of blogs I find BUT it was not the very best I could make it.  It still isn’t!

Yup, that is right, I am not 100% happy with this design and all of its functions however, it was time to stop the tweaking. Websites evolve so I am sure over time it will bother me enough that I will either learn php; or at least figure out some workarounds to make the changes I want.

Going through the process of building this blog, being honest, was extremely frustrating yet I was able to see how much of a perfectionist I am and its effects. No one was pushing me to make this site better but myself. Most of you would not even notice the little things I did, the little changes I made at 2am because it bothered me so much I could not sleep until they were made.

There is good and bad in all of us. We all have traits that make us strong yet on the flip side, that same trait may hurt us. I thank God for allowing me a great moment of introspection this past week.  I learned much about myself! I will still strive for excellence in all that I do however; I will try and find that pause button more often.  Just good enough will never work, at least for me!

What strengths do you have, that at times, may also present a challenge?

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